Is this just getting older?
I can't get away from this rain
I'm starting to think that it's me
And I wanna just create things
But the longer it takes, I feel drink up
Remember the day I've been sober
Not in a place to take blame
Any more way I might break
Tell me, do you feel the same?
Guess we all go the same way
I'm in a bit of a mess here
Count to ten and hope to disappear
I never did my homework
Could I have been more than this?
Finding a way to exist within a world with no risk
Forcing a shoe that won't fit
I spend most the days stoned
And making excuses for it
Saying, it'll help to write this
But on the real, I'm tight-lipped
Shooting the shot that I'll miss
And it's so far from it
Why the hell am I still here?
This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
And I know that it will be alright
And if it's nothin', we're fucked, aren't we?
I can't help myself but cry, every time that I realize
Maybe I'll never find my smile
But who's to blame? Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me, well, that's on me
Now that the weather is colder
Nothin' is masking this pain
The summer was here, but won't stay
And we are inside, like, all day
Regretting the things that we say
And it takes a toll, yeah
The conversation won't end
Being a rock for your friends
Cracks in the surface don't mend
We only break, we don't bend
And you think it was so clear
But I can't see nothin' but the fear
I'm feeling so bloated
Thinking the silent won't do
My ass will open up too
Locking myself in my room
Hoping that this will end soon
And no one will notice
What I will put myself through
'Cause they will hate themselves too
Isn't it mad what we do?
Pretending to win, but just lose
And it's so far from here
Why the hell am I still here?
This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
And I know that it will be alright
If it's nothin', we're fucked, aren't we?
I can't help myself but cry, every time that I realize
Maybe I'll never find my smile
But who's to blame? Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me, well, that's on me
Too many things on my mind
To process moments of life
That, somedays, I lose my drive
And some, can't control the fire
I move where the things take time
But I'm not a patient guy
Maybe if I wait, I'll find
Resemblance and peace of mind
This is just getting older
Running away from my past
Knowing the comet won't last
Being a mouse in this grass
Feeding the snakes behind us
And I'm searching for closure
But nothin' is healing these scars
When I open up, they just laugh
Saying that they had just half
That nothin' will ever be dark
Is it, new me, new year
Or, just the same old blues fear?
This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
And I know that it will be alright
And if it's nothin', we're fucked, aren't we?
I can't help myself but cry, every time that I realize
Maybe I'll never find my smile
But who's to blame? Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me, well, that's on me
Well, that's on me